Knowing that too well and being in the same spot. I manage to get wins VS 1400/1450 players and then again I lose vs 1250ish players. My elo is hovering between 1250 and 1350 since more than a year now. Sometimes I got near 1200, sometimes I got near 1400, but my games feel quite inkonsistent as well.
For me its a plus most time playing random civ: that leads to some so felt “civ losses” as well to some good civs in a row.
After some bad matches sometimes I pick civ. Even worse, when I won’t win that game I feel even worse for myself for picking and not even winning.
Then again comes times when I get Franks, mayans or some other great civs in a row by random, win these games and then intentionally pick bad civs to even that out. Guess that’s a bit crazy 😅😂
(but always leave random open if opponent would pick random too, which unfortunately don’t happen too oft around 1300 elo)