Returning from a break. I shoud actually be rusty, but I’m motivated, and I have nothing to lose. The first games are fun. I even win most of them. Wow, this is such a great game, why did I ever think of quitting? I’m not even such a bad player as I thought I were.
OK, this game today was not so good. On to the next. Losing again. How could I throw this? Let’s go on. I’m still positive. Boar kills vil. Housed all the time. What happened? Getting destroyed. Losing streak is in progress. Every game gets worse. All confidence is gone. After 8 humiliations, finally a weak opponent that I can defeat. Going to bed, still frustrated.
The next days it gets a bit better, some wins, but not as convincing as some days before after my break. Always with the feeling that I’m not as good as my elo. And the next losing streak ist just around the corner. It usually ends with an extra frustrating ultra-humiliating loss against Janissaries on Arena. Enough! Uninstalling it again. I hope this time I’m strong enough to never come back.
A few weeks later, the story repeats …